" Dear you my beloved future husband, who I can’t mention your name now.

Allah has already written your name as my spouse. And what I need to work on is my relationship with Him. I have to fall in love with Him first. And He will give me the right person-you- that I deserve in the right time. He will send you to me when I’m ready.

It’s only a matter of time.

Allah wrote down your name next to me before He created the heaven and the earth. 50000 years ago it was already written who I’d be marrying with.  May you are the one whose heart is attached to Allah. I know love is not just about finding a good partner, it’s also about being a good one.

My heart should be so lost in Allah that you need to seek Him in order to find me. Let’s become ourselves best. 

Let’s get closer to Allah. And the closer we get to Allah, the closer we are to each other. InsyaAllah. 

Dear my beloved future husband, Please be my imam for my prayers. Be my qari and reads the Qur’an for me. Be the one who leads me to Allah.

Be the one who makes my iman rise, be the one who reminds me of Allah because your love for me is indeed true, be the one who brings me closer to Allah because you truly love me, who makes me more pious and who helps me here in the dunya because you want to meet me again in Jannah.

And we will be the one who love each other for the sake of His Glory. That’s all I’m asking for, that’s all would make me happy. I’m always thinking of you then making lots of do’a for you, for me, for us.

Dear my beloved future hubby, please meet my guardian soon, that’s more worth to me than 1000’s of sweet words and promises. Then, I will reserve a space in my heart for you who make an effort to be a part of my life. And when you tell me that you want my feet to be your kid’s Jannah.

 I would so say yes. Then we will live happily ever after because we’re gonna step into Paradise together insya Allah. Is that the true love we should work for, isn’t it?

Dear my  beloved future husband, you don’t have to drive any BMW or Mercedez to be gorgeous. Be an imam in prayers. That’s how I define gorgeous. You don’t have to have a nice voice and hush me with lovely songs. Recite the Kalamullah, Al Qur’anul Kariim. That’s how I would melt.

And you don’t have to be rich for me to love you. Please have a kind heart. That’s more than enough for me. Nobody’s perfect. You are nobody. So, just be a man who is a slave of Allah. Because a man who reminds me to fear Allah is my true companion worth more than anything and everything this world can possibly offer.

And I truly know that appearance is no guarantee of happiness and if I focus on those factors, then I will likely find myself mismatched and brokenhearted. I won’t be shallow look for more factors in a suitor then wealth, appearance, and lineage.

Akhlak over everything.

Dear my beloved future husband, I just want to be the one you call your wife. Your presence will give me happiness. You’ll be my halal prince charming. Riding your horse of Taqwa. Holding onto the Quran in your right hand and the Sunnah in your left. I hear you’re worth to wait. So I’ll wait Insya Allah.

My heart belongs to no one. I just thought I should let you know. It belongs to Allah and only Him. You’ll have to get lost in Him to find me and even then you’ll still have to rightfully become a part of my heart. Only through Him. What I’m trying to say is that we have to get lost in Him to find each other. I hope you’re up for the journey.

I know I am. “

Couple? Not For Me, Thanks! (in Manglish) #Salute anak Pak man :)

"Mungkin dia perlukan perhatian," Kasihan by Hujan.

Since this seems like THE topic right now, I have been drawn to share my views/ reasons/ arguments/ whatevers for not couple-ing (that's having a girlfriend, for all you non-Manglish speakers).

Disclaimer: I have had the experience of having a girlfriend before this (two experiences, to be exact), so I know why people do it too (ecewaaaaah, expert abes ayat beliau!). Oh, and this post will be in Manglish too. (Sorry non-Manglish speakers!)

Reason #1: Berdossaaa..

The reasons that I have been reading all along. All I agree with. There are several blogposts about this that say it better than I ever could, but the most concise (i guess) would be this one --> Click here. Check it out.

Reason #2: Loss of Freedom

Sure, memang bes bila ada orang tanya pasai kita tiap-tiap hari. Sikit-sikit, "Dah makan belum?" Sikit-sikit, "Dah mandi belum?" Sikit-sikit, "Dah berak belum?"

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Tapi lama-lama naik rimas gak woh. Bila dah siap buat satu benda ja kena bagi report, kalau tak kena merajuk sedas. Bila tak reti nak pujuk awek, tambah-merajuk beliau pasai kita tak pandai nak pujuk. Last-last skali kena label "tak reti nak pujuk orang".

Jadi hidup akan jadi soo dependent on our phones. Kena text them, like, 24/7 kot. Nak buat kerja pun payah. Kalau lambat reply, kena lagi merajuk. Mau tak letih? Bila busy sikit, kena merajuk lagi. Nak bersembang rancak ngan member-member pun jadi payah. Pasaipa? Pasai time dok sembang-sembang, nak kena stop sat, reply message dulu. Kawan kita dok cakap, kita tak pay attention kat dia, then kata "hah?" Kawan kita pun naik bengkek ngan kita.

Tapi, on the other hand, kalau ignore the phone, then akan dapat lagi message daripada "si dia", yang akan berbaur "hello?", "U there?", ataupun miscall trus. Then, this happens:

Si dia: pasaipa lambat reply?

Kita: sembang ngan kawan.

Si dia: Oh, kawan... (which of course means "So kawan hang lagi important dari aku la?? Kononnya special la aku?? Kawan boleh dicari, tapi aku mana hang nak jumpak???")

Kita: Sorry.

Si dia: *merajuk, tak reply.

And the whole sha-bang lah after that. The fight scene that ensues I'll leave to your colourful imaginations jalah.

So, memang tak free man. Kena menjawab ALL THE TIME. Baik clash and stay single. Tak payah risau nak report kat siapa-siapa.

Reason #3: Habis duit.

Seriously, if you have a girlfriend, your wallet is not safe. Or rather, the money inside it. It's not that the girl will ask for the money or presents or whatever. It's usually our own innate desire to be so-called "romantic" to get them stuff. Pantang nampak bear cute atau cincin stai skit, kita terbayang-bayang si dia, so kita pun beli la, bagi kat dia bila jumpak.

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Ha, bila jumpak tu pun satu lagi hal. Kita ni kena la jadi gentleman konon kan? Kena la spend duit nak belanja dia ini itu. Mana boleh split the bill beb. Tak gentle ah. Kita kena belanja. Memang at the time kita tak perasan pun duit kita habis. Kita terlalu taksub nak make that person happy and make it seem like we're the perfect boyfriend, that everything that we spend is considered small change compared to what we get in return, and that's "true love". Bleagh~ I can't believe I was that kind of person. Astaghfirullahal'aziim.

Then not to mention the incessant amount of money that needs to be spent on prepaid. You have to text this person every 3 minutes, for the whole time that you're awake (let's just put it at 15 hours). After doing the math, (what?? Anak Pak Man does math??) I have discovered that if you send a text message every 3 minutes for 15 hours, you would have sent 500 texts to just ONE PERSON in a day. That's like RM5 (if one text was one sen). So an RM10 prepaid card would only last you 2 days! Gosh, even I'm astonished with this piece of information.

What do you get in return for your heavy investments? So-called "pure love" from someone who is not even your wife and you can't do stuff to her that you can do to your wife, and nothing else. Now tell me, is that rational?

Reason #4: You Lose Friends

Okay, maybe I'm exaggerating a little bit. Just because you have a girlfriend doesn't mean you lose friends automatically. But you do lose the time you can spend with your friends. Think about it.

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Friend: Jom p tengok movie?

Kita: Oh, taleh ah bro, aku nak keluaq ngan awek satgi.

Friend: Oh, okay then.

Friend: Jom p mandi sungai?

Kita: Oh, taleh ah bro, aku janji nak breakfast ngan awek aku.

Friend: Hmm.

Friend: Jom mandi hujan?

Kita: Oh, taleh ah bro, awek aku kata bahaya, dia tamaw aku demam nanti.

Friend: What the foo??

Seriously, when your life revolves around your awek, everything else just drifts away. Family, friends, you bet.

So I have my reasons. I can spend my feelings, time and money on things that really matter, that are friends and family. Plus, I don't need to have a girlfriend to be in love. I'm already in love right now, and that love has brought and will bring me closer to Allah. And that's the only love I need.

Akhir kata, takkan kau rasai indahnya cinta; andai tiada cinta buat Yang Esa. (You won't feel the beauty of love if you don't feel love towards the One)

Cheers!

Kain Telekung Tesco

Hai. this is only a repost from IniAnwarHadi. hahaha

i sort of love this post so just enjoy it! 

always. there's thousand ways to gain rewards

:)

"Why don't we break the rules already?" Some Nights by Fun.
So I just noticed that I didn't post anything in February. Now my 2013 archives won't look pretty. Boohoo ;_;
So here's a story:
I was in my car, getting out of the maktab gates with some friends, when, while signing out, another friend of mine, let's call her Maddy, was also signing out. We asked her where she was going, and she said Tesco, so since we were going there anyway and there was still space in the car, I asked if she wanted a lift. She accepted.
She was carrying a bag, so I asked her what was in the bag.
"Maddy, ada apa dalam beg?"
"Kain telekong."
"Hang nak pi juai ka apa?"
"Dak aih. Saja amek kain telekong had ada kat surau Tesco tu bawak balik basuh. Ni nak bagi balik ah."
"Aik? Awat hang pi basuh plak?"
"La, biaq pi kat aku la nak buat apa pun!"
The end.

There are always ways to make the world a better place. And those ways don't have to be extravagant or big scale. Something as little as picking up a piece of plastic on the sidewalk and putting it into a nearby garbage can. Or moving a rock from the road. Or seeing that the prayer garments in a surau you frequent are dirty/smelly, and washing some. Or smiling to a stranger. It improves not only our own lives, but also others'.
There are an excess of opportunities to do good in the world and make it a better place. We just have to look.
May peace be upon you.
Cheers!

Ahmad Ammar Ahmad Azam. Allahurabbi :'(

Assalamualaikum..

walaupun dah brpa bulan pemergian almarhum 

Ahmad Ammar Ahmad Azam.

tapi aku masih merasakan kehilangan.

bukan cuma aku malah seise dunia sangat merasakan pemergianmu.

aku tak pernah mengenalimu.

tapi kali pertama aku terbaca kisahmu dan mendengar berita kematianmu.

hati aku begitu sebak..

seolah-olah aku baru saja kehilangan seorang sahabat yang plaing kusayangi.

benar, hebat kuasa Allah.

begitu besar petunjuk yang diberikan. Allahuakbar.

setiap membaca berita tentangmu hati aku sakit.

sakit kerana apa?

kerana aku begitu leka dengan dunia.

sedangkan kau sedang berjuang membela maruah Islam.

sedang aku sendiri tak punya kesedaran sebegitu Ya Ammar :'(

sakit kerana usiamu terlalu singkat di bumi ini.

sedangkan semua umat manusia memerlukan insan sepertimu.

Mujaheddin yang sanggup memperjuangkan Islam 

dalam apa cara sekalipun.

aku terlalu kagum denganmu.

tapi aku sedar Allah lebih menyayangi insan seperti mu Ammar.

ada hikmah disebalik tiap kejadian ini.

Allah menghantar umat sepertimu untuk membangkitkan umatNya.

benarlah pemergianmu sebagai simbolik kebangkitan 

(nahdah) anak muda dunia Islam.

kematian yang hidup.

aku tidak pernah kenal denganmu semasa hayatmu.

bahkan tak pernah tau akan kewujudan jasadmu.

tapi aku dapat merasakan sebuah kehilangan yang besar.

aku merasakan betapa dunia memerlukan insan sepertimu.

aku tak pernah menangis untuk siapapun yang tak pernah aku kenali.

tapi kali pertama aku tau akan kewujudanmu setelah rohmu diangkat ke langit..

aku menangis, Ya Mujahid :'(

aku menangis semahunya seperti kau adalah darah dagingku sendiri.

bahkan setiap kali menatap kisahmu aku masih juga menangis.

aku masih saja sebak.

dan sekarang sedang aku menaip juga aku sedang menangis.

sungguh aku kagum dengan keperibadianmu Ammar.

kisah hidupmu terlalu aku kagum.

"Tidak beriman seseorang kamu selagi mana dia tidak mengasihi saudaranya sebagaimana dia mengasihi dirinya sendiri" HR Bukhari

tak pernah aku temui manusia seluhur keperibadianmu.

semoga Syurga buatmu saudaraku.

usia yang sama. sudah 20 tahun kita hidup di bumi Allah ini.

cuma amalan kita terlalu berbeza Ya Ammar.

mengingatimu, aku merasakan begitu berdosa.

terlalu banyak dosaku, dan terlalu sikit amalanku Ya Allah.

betapa kurangnya kesedaran aku, sedangkan kau sedang berjuang demi Islam.

aku pula terlalu leka. terlalu selesa.

begitu jauh aku rasakan diriku dengan sang pencipta.

membaca kisahmu aku dapat merasakan betapa dekatnya dirimu denganNya.

aku rasakan betapa sayangnya Allah padamu.

dan aku sempat cemburu Ya Mujahid.

adakah aku terlalu sensitif atau memang seharusnya aku menangis Ya Ammar?

hatiku sendiri menangis mengenangkan dosa-dosaku.

kurangnya amalanku.

betapa duniawinya aku sedangkan dirimu sedang gigih berjihad.

egoisnya aku sebagai umatNya.

tanpa berfikir sejenak untuk menjadikan Islam setinggi-tinggi agama.

Ya Mujahid, pemergianmu menjadi kebangkitan nahdah.

kematian yang hidup. yang masih segar dalam benak setiap umat yang merasai

kehilanganmu Ammar.

pemergianmu telah membuka mata banyak sahabat.

dalam usiamu kami tak pernah mengenalimu.

dirimu sangat merendah diri dan kelihatan biasa2 saja.

tapi setelah pemergianmu, namamu menjadi perbualan penduduk bumi

dan langit.

Allahurabbi. Allah Maha Besar.

dalam usiaku sebegini.

baru aku sedar akan kebesaranMu Ya Allah. 

Ya Ammar. rindumu pada syahid telah dimakbulkan Allah.

aku terlalu mencemburui perjalanan hidupmu Ammar.

sungguh gigih kau mencari redha Allah.

sungguh mulia peribadimu.

semasa hayatmu dikelilingi orang-orang soleh.

lihatlah jemaah yang solat jenazah untukmu.

pemergianmu juga diiringi orang-orang soleh.

malah makammu jua ditempatkan di makam para sahabat.

sedangkan kamu juga pelajar Malaysia yang menuntut di Turki.

tapi kamu diberi penghormatan begitu besar Ya Mujahid.

Allahuakbar.

pemergianmu dirasai seluruh umat manusia Ya Mujaheddin. 

berbicara tentangmu takkan pernah habis.

terlalu banyak yang tersimpan dalam dirimu untuk dirungkai.

membaca kisahmu aku tidak pernah bosan.

Allah telah datangkan khalifah sepertimu sebagai pencetus ummah.

Ya Ammar, semoga kau tenang di sana.

Al-fatihah..

Hai 21th Syahirah :) #SZ

Assalamualaikum :)

And a happy new year. hihi

i know it's a bit late. sbenarnya nak post pada 1 jan haritu.

tapi now baru sempat. hihi

takpe lah. still mood new year kan? :)

All praises to Allah that

i'm still breathing,

still smiling,

still laughing,

still knee down upon Him.

Alhamdulillah.

and tau apa yang paling happy?

it's my 21th years old.

hahaha

ntah apa lah excited sangat dgn umur tu?

ntah, tapi aku rasa sangat excited to learn new things

and learn the responsibilities of being an adult :)

pada aku, setiap meningkatnya umur kita.

kita akan belajar benda baru yang akan mematangkan kita.

akan belajar lebih banyak tentang kehidupan.

keperitan, kebahagiaan.. ya smua tu lah :)

at the age of 20th.

i learnt so much things.

tlalu banyak benda yang mengajar aku.

kehilangan, keperitan dan kebahagiaan.

semua tu mengajar aku untuk lebih tabah.

ya, masih mncuba.

dan cuba memahami kehidupan sebenar.

belajar menjadi lebih dewasa dan lebih baik.

whatever has happens, i really love being 20th.

an age that i would never forget :)

and by this age i found ones who taught me precious things.

thank u so much.

there's no word to describe how grateful i am to have u.

to thank Almighty for sending me person like u for me to adapt.

i know Allah send his bless upon u for me.

Allah datangkan kamu untuk saya belajar sesuatu dari kamu

supaya saya sentiasa mengingatiNya.

whatever it is..

thanks a lot u :) 

and may my 21th be better and blissful :)

aminn aminn Ya Rabb :)