A state of mind;

Life is a rosy dream,

happiness and joy aplenty,

everything that i wanted and

everything is as i had hoped for;

Everything is as i had hoped for,

everything is as i had longed for,

everything is except for the turmoil

that plagues me inside every day;

I sleep, i smile, i laugh, i play, i eat and i live

in a constant state of fear,

a fear that i did not ask for,

and one that i did not longed for;

killing me from inside,

silently screaming for it to stop,

i am devoured by my own inner self,

day in and day out;

haunting and taunting me,

time and time again,

they run helter and skelter

in the deep recess of my mind;

it’s just a state of mind,

i tell myself

hoping to erase these thoughts

of fear that hinges on the edge of my happiness;

Trapped inside my own mind,

eclipsed by my fear,

tears weep without a choice

hoping to vanquish (flood) this struggle within;