Hai it's been awhile since I last update. I've been busy and out of topic, losing mood in blogging.
duh, I don't know what happened.
I've been up to something and naa, nowadays I just can't think of anything else.
I'm out of mood into anything that I found nothing really matter now. I'm no longer cares whatever my pal are doing or people are doing. but somehow I am doing great life now. I enjoyed my exercise journey, my meal and my favorite movies. and absolutely my beloved old man, mfm. hahaa

and mom keep asking me to get married as usual as I told her me and him are preparing everything, stay calm mother. man, I miss you great time. I miss to stay besides you watching football games while I keep looking around and you looking at me. I never figured out the way I feel to sat besides you in the car with your friend at the back which definitely make me awkward to the blast because I'm hungry and too shy to tell in front of him. guess what sayang, I love when you take me to the restaurant bcs you know how strong my passion was to the foods. I can't stay mad at you, can't scold you straight in the face though you made me end up in the hospital. I just can't hurt you that way. I know it hurts you so many times seeing me lack of oxygen while we were running to the hospital and I should spent big thanks to Ijam for drove us straight to the hospital and waiting patiently until late at 1 am. I know you scared when mom wants to talk to you, but I manage to calm you when mom and my grandad wants to come to the hospital. I know I am in the good hands. I know you do little quarrel with your housemates just to protect me. I know even when you didn't tell me anything. I know you are trying to make me happy when you brought me to see the friends. They are all funny and you know I love them, you've made me happy love. I know you are trying to protect me, prepared me a place to stay when I am sulk and just want to go back. You don't even console me with sweet words but I know you trying to protect me and I know you love me. I know you cared when I'm cry, I know you are sad listening to my weak voices, I know you hurt inside. I known bcs you are a part of me and one day you are gonna be my whole. I know you are trying to give the best for me and you did. I know you want me to grow beautifully. I know you want me to understand life, stay healthy and persistently mature going through a life. I know you love me and sayang you know who I would live a hug with :)